My Mental Health Evolution

There's a push and a pull now. 
There is an old and a new.
A light and a heavy.
It is because I am changing - I am becoming. 

There are still things that annoy me.
There are still things that anger me.
Things that fluster, sadden and hurt.

I have found that if I let myself feel the negative emotion, it is easier to let it go. If I fight it or build onto it, it is harder for it to leave. Since uncovering my true self, I can feel it without having it stick around. 

This is one of the most powerful things that I've ever experienced. For years I thought that there was something to fix. My past was something that needed mending. I spent time analyzing, discussing, and researching my past. 

Knowledge is power, but then what? 

Learning about my past was gift - but it was no longer serving me. 

Now I use my past to create my future. I know what patterns my past created and why. I can recognize when they are happening in real time and create space to make a choice.

There is always a choice.

Sometimes the patterns are so strong, that the choice comes after the trigger or situation - but the choice still exists. 

Therapy helped me.
Meds helped me.
And now I help me. 

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Mental health is just as important as physical health. And just like physical health treatment, there is no one way to treat mental health. What matters is that you do.